Some say that though we couldn't talk, we could communicate. (Us, when we were toothless humans-kids, so adorable) Thats why when a kid has shit in his diapers he will cry. A certain cry and just like that we will know that the kid has shit.
And when a kid is hungry. She cries, and that's the way she communicates.
When did life become a competition? Did directors open us to a world where friends-with-benefits is a legitimate kind of relationship? Did writers convince us that the more girls you have done the more of a man you are? Did wedding planners convince women that the bigger your wedding, the better you are?
When did life become a competition?
Life became a competition when she was cheated on. Life became a competition when some guy made some woman feel like she wasn't good enough.
And just like kids look at the world, understand it and decide. Every time I cry in a super market, I get a toy car. Every time I hurt myself I get everyone's attention. Every time I dance this way that guy stares.
When did life become a competition?
Life became a competition when she was seated at the cafeteria with one of her friends. And they went on with there normal life, talked about guys, shoes, dresses, ice cream and how nice the chicken was.
Then a guy, who was my friend. Stood up from our table, walked up to that girl and asked her...
"hi"
The girl smiled. I think she thought that the guy was approaching her. She must have thought the guy was going to drop a pick up line. She would find it corny. But it was alright. She had this look on her face. I-have-been-waiting-for-you-to-say-something. Say anything, come on, say anything am going to take you home.
"hi"
Both dames stopped eating and looked at the guy.
"so you both have both ice cream and juice?"
The girls smiled innocently. Yes.
He started laughing as if he couldn't contain himself.
"how can you be so stupid, they serve the same purpose."
And these girls didn't even know what had just happened to them. Everyone was staring at them. The guy was laughing, and he even pretended he needed to hold there table not to fall. He was so spectacular we all laughed.
And everyone else around started laughing. They didn't know what they were laughing about, but laughter is contagious. No one but us knew what we were laughing about, but everyone knew what they were laughing at but not knowing what they were laughing about.
In a matter of ten minutes, the lives of two innocent girls changed.
When did life become a competition? Life became a competition when those two girls got laughed at. It's then they formed this perception that, there are people who are better than others. And it's been fucked up from that time onwards.
So at some point I liked one of those girls. But she is no longer the girl I used to know.
She makes everyone who isn't wearing heels as good as hers feel like crap. She doesn't date guys who don't drive. She doesn't eat any place where they don't allow visa. She doesn't say it, cause saying it would be just mean. But she acts it.
But I don't blame her imagine. We are all kids. We all still have fresh minds, until someone publicly humiliates us, and we react like any human will do when engaging with the world.
We are just trying to find our lost reputation, we are just trying to be somebody, we are just trying to gain our lost pride, we just want our respect back. It's all right. Am just trying to write my wrongs, my reputation is going with it. But the sign of a growing man is his ability to feel guilt.
But how the fuck do you go to some innocent girls, seated comfortably with minds un-polluted and decide to make yourself look better, stronger, more confident, daring, by humiliating them. How fucked up are you? How stupid are you? Why can't you fuckin find another way of making yourself someone, that doesn't involve crushing others. Ruining them for life. That's just plain stupid.
Yes... And then you wonder, here is a guy, who writes about how anyone who guards your gate as employment, anyone who polish your shoes for a salary is the scum of the earth. We all have come from hard places, we all might be faced with worse, but how we come out of it, is what makes us who we are. So am not fuckn erasing any shit I wrote before this. Those f*** retards should realize that all these posts are connected. And if I f**** up my life for doing this. I will know I will have made at least someone an angel.
Cause when two innocent girls sat there, and they were socially attacked, I wasn't there to seat next to them. Make everything better. And I would have dammit, I fuckn would have. Would you have? Have you ever? No, I feel sorry for you, you haven't lived until you have saved a life!
